Everything before now has lead me here and I feel like change is definitely at the forefront, shaping my life. Its not something for the future (even though its always there)...its something happening right now. How many times in your life can you say that change is actually happening today, tomorrow, this week, this month and this year AND at the same time say I can actually see it in front of me, around me, poking at my thoughts, my skin, my just being. I'm definitely riding these waves excited to see the next one and mindful that all this change will eventually lead me to want more of it. I'm hungry like I can't live without it and do not know how I lived before it. Not scared to know that I dont know. Only motivated to continue to pursue, to create, to develop, to evolve, to learn, to not worry, to not fear, to not forget. Creation is passion, is life, is love, is reflective, is more then just the surface, and is dark, destructive, and not without struggle.
The way I see myself and the way I have actually been are two different entities. Frightened to acknowledge yet inspired to continue. I am trying to open my eyes to what reality is and what is in my head. its all very much inspiring to break the mold, learn what it is inside me that will determine and define my being.
deep in thought.....
